Since he was the host of the show “The Mole” (which, on a side note, was the best reality game show ever), I have had alot of respect for Anderson Cooper.  But after seeing and reading about what he is doing in Haiti, I now have profound respect for him. – Tim

Read “Why I’m back in Haiti”

I was asked to write a blog about why I wanted to come back to Haiti. I’m not really sure how to answer that question. No one I’ve seen today in Port-au-Prince has asked me that. If anything, people here ask why I left, and why so many other reporters have left as well. I don’t really know what to tell them.

I was here for more than two weeks immediately following the quake and, the truth is, I left because I needed a break. That’s not the kind of thing you can really tell someone who is living on the streets of Port-au-Prince. They know a lot more about exhaustion than I ever will.

I spent last week in New York, but, the truth is, it felt very strange. When you know something monumental is happening so close to our shores, and yet you don’t see it on a daily basis – it’s an odd disconnect, and it doesn’t feel right.

Later this week is the one month anniversary of the earthquake. To say things are getting better here is probably technically correct, but it’s still miserable for hundreds of thousands of people.

The homeless are everywhere, the hungry are as well. They are still finding bodies all the time. Twenty-five people were shoved into old crypts in a city cemetery today. We watched the remains of a mother and her son being sealed into a crypt.

It’s not the kind of misery that makes for headlines perhaps, and clearly it’s not the kind of sorrow that demands a place on the nightly news, but it should.

There is more happening here than 10 American missionaries in jail. I guess I came to remind myself of that. No one deserves to die in silence, and no one’s struggle to live should go unnoticed as well…

I told a story to my junior high small group on Wednesday and they all really liked it.  They asked me to post it on Facebook, but since I don’t have a Facebook account, I decided I would just post it on my blog (so here it is my small groupers!).  I heard the story a long time ago and it had a really powerful effect on me, I hope it has a similar effect on you.  – Tim

There was a certain Professor of Religion named Dr. Christianson, a studious man who taught at a small college in the western United States .. Dr. Christianson taught the required survey course in Christianity at this particular institution. Every student was required to take this course their freshman year, regardless of his or her major.

Although Dr. Christianson tried hard to communicate the essence of the gospel in his class, he found that most of his students looked upon the course as nothing but required drudgery.  Despite his best efforts, most students refused to take Christianity seriously.

This year, Dr. Christianson had a special student named Steve.  Steve was only a freshman, but was studying with the intent of going onto seminary for the ministry.  Steve was popular, he was well liked, and he was an imposing physical specimen.  He was now the starting center on the school football team, and was the best student in the professor’s class.

One day, Dr. Christianson asked Steve to stay after class so he could talk with him.   “How many push-ups can you do?”

Steve said, “I do about 200 every night.”

“200? That’s pretty good, Steve,” Dr. Christianson said. “Do you think you could do 300?”

Steve replied, “I don’t know…. I’ve never done 300 at a time”

“Do you think you could?” again asked Dr. Christianson.

“Well, I can try,” said Steve.

“Can you do 300 in sets of 10?  I have a class project in mind and I need you to do about 300 push-ups in sets of ten for this to work.  Can you do it? I need you to tell me you can do it,” said the professor.

Steve said, “Well… I think I can…yeah, I can do it.”

Dr. Christianson said, “Good!  I need you to do this on Friday.  Let me explain what I have in mind.”

Friday came and Steve got to class early and sat in the front of the room. When class started, the professor pulled out a big box of donuts.   No, these weren’t the normal kinds of donuts, they were the extra fancy BIG kind, with cream centers and frosting swirls.  Everyone was pretty excited it was Friday, the last class of the day, and they were going to get an early start on the weekend with a party in Dr. Christianson’s class.

Dr. Christianson went to the first girl in the first row and asked, “Cynthia, do you want to have one of these donuts?”

Cynthia said, “Yes.”

Dr. Christianson then turned to Steve and asked, “Steve, would you do ten push-ups so that Cynthia can have a donut?”

“Sure!” Steve jumped down from his desk to do a quick ten.  Then Steve again sat in his desk. Dr. Christianson put a donut on Cynthia’s desk.

Dr. Christianson then went to Joe, the next person, and asked, “Joe, do you want a donut?”

Joe said, “Yes.”

Dr. Christianson asked, “Steve would you do ten push-ups so Joe can have a donut?”

Steve did ten push-ups, Joe got a donut.  And so it went, down the first aisle, Steve did ten push-ups for every person before they got their donut.

Walking down the second aisle, Dr. Christianson came to Scott. Scott was on the basketball team, and in as good condition as Steve.  He was very
popular and never lacking for female companionship.

When the professor asked, “Scott do you want a donut?” Scott’s reply was, “Well, can I do my own push-ups?”

Dr. Christianson said, “No, Steve has to do them.”

Then Scott said, “Well, I don’t want one then.”

Dr. Christianson shrugged and then turned to Steve and asked, “Steve, would you do ten push-ups so Scott can have a donut he doesn’t want?”

With perfect obedience Steve started to do ten push-ups.

Scott said, “HEY! I said I didn’t want one!” Dr. Christianson said, “Look!, this is my classroom, my class, my desks, and these are my donuts. Just leave it on the desk if you don’t want it.” And he put a donut on Scott’s desk.

Now by this time, Steve had begun to slow down a little.  He just stayed on the floor between sets because it took too much effort to be getting up and down.  You could start to see a little perspiration coming out around his brow.

Dr. Christianson started down the third row.  Now the students were beginning to get a little angry.  Dr. Christianson asked Jenny, “Jenny, do you want a donut?”

Sternly, Jenny said, “No.”

Then Dr. Christianson asked Steve, “Steve, would you do ten more push-ups so Jenny can have a donut that she doesn’t want?” Steve did ten….Jenny got a donut.

By now, a growing sense of uneasiness filled the room.  The students were beginning to say, “No!” and there were all these uneaten donuts on the desks.  Steve also had to really put forth a lot of extra effort to get these push-ups done for each donut.  There began to be a small pool of sweat on the floor beneath his face, his arms and brow were beginning to get red because of the physical effort involved. Dr. Christianson asked Robert, who was the most vocal unbeliever in the class, to watch Steve do each push up to make sure he did the full ten push-ups in a set because he couldn’t bear to watch all of Steve’s work for all of those uneaten donuts.   He sent Robert over to where Steve was so Robert could count the set and watch Steve closely.

Dr. Christianson started down the fourth row.  During his class, however, some students from other classes had wandered in and sat down on the steps along the radiators that ran down the sides of the room.   When the professor realized this, he did a quick count and saw that now there were 34 students in the room.  He started to worry if Steve would be able to make it.

Dr. Christianson went on to the next person and the next and the next. Near the end of that row, Steve was really having a rough time.  He was taking a lot more time to complete each set.   Steve asked Dr. Christianson, “Do I have to make my nose touch on each one?”

Dr. Christianson thought for a moment, “Well, they’re your push-ups.  You are in charge now.  You can do them any way that you want.” And Dr. Christianson went on.

A few moments later, Jason, a recent transfer student, came to the room and was about to come in when all the students yelled in one voice, “NO! Don’t come in! Stay out!”  Jason didn’t know what was going on.   Steve picked up his head and said, “No, let him come.”

Professor Christianson said, “You realize that if Jason comes in you will have to do ten push-ups for him?”

Steve said, “Yes, let him come in. Give him a donut.”

Dr. Christianson said, “Okay, Steve, I’ll let you get Jason’s out of the way right now.  Jason, do you want a donut?”

Jason, new to the room, hardly knew what was going on. “Yes,” he said, “give me a donut.”

“Steve, will you do ten push-ups so that Jason can have a donut?” Steve did ten push-ups very slowly and with great effort. Jason, bewildered, was handed a donut and sat down.

Dr Christianson finished the fourth row, and then started on those visitors seated by the heaters.  Steve’s arms were now shaking with each push-u p in a struggle to lift himself against the force of gravity.  By this time sweat was profusely dropping off of his face, there was no sound except his heavy breathing; there was not a dry eye in the room.

The very last two students in the room were two young women, both cheerleaders, and very popular. Dr. Christianson went to Linda, the second to last, and asked, “Linda, do you want a doughnut?”

Linda said, very sadly, “No, thank you.”

Professor Christianson quietly asked, “Steve, would you do ten push-ups so that Linda can have a donut she doesn’t want?”

Grunting from the effort, Steve did ten very slow push-ups for Linda.

Then Dr. Christianson turned to the last girl, Susan. “Susan, do you want a donut?” Susan, with tears flowing down her face, began to cry. “Dr. Christianson, why can’t I help him?”

Dr Christianson, with tears of his own, said, “No, Steve has to do it alone; I have given him this task and he is in charge of seeing that everyone e has an opportunity for a donut whether they want it or not.  When I decided to have a party this last day of class, I looked at my grade book.  Steve here is the only student with a perfect grade.  Everyone else has failed a test, skipped class, or offered me inferior work.   Steve told me that in football practice, when a player messes up he must do push-ups. I told Steve that none of you could come to my party unless he paid the price by doing your push ups.  He and I made a deal for your sakes.”

“Steve, would you do ten push-ups so Susan can have a donut?” As Steve very slowly finished his last push-up, with the understanding that he had accomplished all that was required of him, having done 350 push-ups, his arms buckled beneath him and he fell to the floor.

Dr. Christianson turned to the room and said, “And so it was, that our Savior, Jesus Christ, on the cross, plead to the Father, ‘Into thy hands I commend my spirit.’   With the understanding that He had done everything that was required of Him, He yielded up His life.  And like some of those in this room, many of us leave the gift on the desk, uneaten. ”

Two students helped Steve up off the floor and to a seat, physically exhausted, but wearing a thin smile.

“Well done, good and faithful servant,” said the professor, adding, “Not all sermons are preached in words.” Turning to his class, the professor said, “My wish is that you might understand and fully comprehend all the riches of grace and mercy that have been given to you through the sacrifice of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  He spared not only His Begotten Son, but gave Him up for us all, for the whole Church, now and forever. Whether or not we choose to accept His gift to us, the price has been paid.”

“Wouldn’t you be foolish and ungrateful to leave it lying on the desk?”

The area of my faith that I am really trying to grow and mature is living in a state of expectancy. I guess another word for this is faith, haha. I want to have a faith that is expecting God to move powerfully all the time. This blog post by Mark Batterson, Lead Pastor of National Community Church in Washington D.C., really speaks to that same thing. I found his words to be much better than any I could come up with, so I wanted to share them with you!

Holy Anticipation

“I live my life with a holy anticipation. I genuinely believe that God could come out of nowhere at any given moment, invade the reality of my life, and change everything forever!

I’m reading in Ezekiel this week and I love the specificity of Ezekiel 40:1: “In the twenty-fifth year of our exile, at the beginning of the year, on the tenth day of the month, in the fourteenth year after the city was struck down, on that very day, the hand of the Lord was upon me.”

In the margin of my Bible I wrote: this could be the day.

This could be the day that God gives you a vision. This could be the day you experience a breakthrough. This could be the day God does a miracle. This could be the day the hand of the Lord comes upon you.

I also like the New Testament version of this Old Testament truth. The Message translation of Philippians 4:4 says: He could show up any minute!

May we live with that holy anticipation.”

Hardest line for me to hear?

“How much do you have to hate someone not to tell them?”

Brokenness is such a hard thing to talk about.  It’s one of those things that we all say we want, but allowing ourselves to be broken before God is a much different story.  I thought this post by Craig Groeschel really speaks profoundly about brokenness.  I hope this speaks to some of you like it did to me.

“The Other Side of Brokenness”

A few years ago, I sat on my back porch with one of our campus pastors who was struggling in his role. It was clear that he may not make it as a campus pastor.

It wasn’t because he wasn’t trying. This guy was bringing his best. And it wasn’t because he didn’t care. No one cared more than he did. This guy simply wasn’t succeeding at producing the right outcomes through his people.

When he asked my advice, I told him that God needed to break him. That obviously wasn’t what he wanted to hear. Through tears he told me that he was pretty sure that he was broken.

I explained that if he was “pretty sure,” then he wasn’t broken. When you are broken, you know for sure you are broken.

Over a series of other painful events, this campus pastor finally reached a place of deep brokenness before God. When many parts of his life fell apart, God started putting them back together. Almost overnight, this pastor became an infinitely better spiritual leader and is leading a campus in a way that truly honors God.

Recently he told a group of people, “You won’t really know the goodness of God until you are totally broken.”

If you are hurting deeply right now, God’s love and power are even more evident on the other side of brokenness.

So my girlfriend, darn I mean fiancée (which is so weird to see in text, but so amazing to know she actually said yes and I wasn’t dreaming), lives next door to a cemetery.  Usually cemetery’s creep me out but she lives next to one that probably hasn’t been used for a long while so the people there are really good and dead.  There is a tombstone next to her driveway that caught my eye the other day, it read:

He loved God and man

and was beloved of both.

There is something so poetically beautiful about that statement.  It spoke to me.  In fact, every time I pass that tombstone I smile.  I wish I could have met the man that was described in this manner.  My guess is he was a simple person who had his priorities straight, but his reputation is still being heard one hundred or more years after his death.  I can’t imagine that.  I hope my life still has meaning one hundred years after I’ve died.  I want people to say of my life that I loved both God and man, and both God and man loved me.  If both of those statements aren’t said about me at my funeral, then my life was worthless.  Why?  Matthew 22:37-38 says, “Jesus replied, ‘You must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, and all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. A second is equally important: Love your neighbor as yourself.’”  If I only loved man and not God, then my soul is truly without any worth.  My entire being was created to have a relationship with God.  And if I only loved God and not man, then there is no way I would be able to share my intimate knowledge about the hope of Christ with anyone because I haven’t first loved them.  My goal in life, and I hope yours as well, is to have a reputation that lasts well beyond my time spent on earth.  A reputation that says, “He loved God and man, and was beloved of both.”

All of the theological understanding in the world means nothing without experiencing God.

I wonder what churches would be like if we operated more like this?  Just something to think about…

TOMS Shoes

Welcome to TOMS HQ in Santa Monica.

At TOMS the bike rack is always full.

The music here doesn’t sound like it comes from an elevator.

It usually sounds more like it comes from Argentina.

We don’t wear dress shoes.

We wear TOMS Shoes.

We have a kitched and everyone does his or her part to clean up.

We recycle.

We don’t have AC but we do have fans.

And occasionally, we take a step outside.

The door is always open.

And it’s a big door.

We eat at picnic tables.

They’re painted light blue.

We keep out pencils and pens in recycled shoes.

We keep our focus on helping children.

We have quotes on the walls from Mark Twain.

And Shania Twain.

The art in our office is not from the expressionist movement.

It from the One for One movement.

Our conference room is called the Barn.

And sometimes we run around like animals.

We like to brainstorm.

And eat.

Sometimes on Fridays, we go to the beach.

But every day, we work together.

There are differences and disagreements.

But there is compromise and understanding.

There are mistakes.

And we learn from them.

We have cubicles…. They’re plywood.

We don’t have fancy lighting.

Or carpet.

But we like to think it’s the people that make the company.

And we think we’re on to something.

Maybe more offices should look like this.

This is not much of a secret, but in case you didn’t know, I have a total man crush on Craig Groeschel.  I really look up to him as a pastor and as a leader.  But more importantly, I admire how God is using both he and his church (LifeChurch.tv).  This is a post from Craig’s blog.  I really believe what he is saying is 110% true.  For our churches to understand giving and get behind it, the leaders need to display a lifestyle of giving.  Reading this makes me want to redouble and retriple my efforts to live a lifestyle of generosity and giving.

“Several pastors have complained to me that most people in their churches are not generous. I’m guessing that the churches are a reflection of its leaders. If our ministries aren’t generous, it is probably because we aren’t.

Several years ago, God started moving our family toward a much more intentional life of generosity. Not surprisingly, our church has followed.

Dave Ramsey is one of the best Christian financial teachers in the world. For years, we’ve embraced his teaching faithfully.

Dave has always encouraged people to “live like no one else, so one day you can live like no one else.” In other words, if you sacrifice, live beneath your means, save and invest, one day you’ll have the freedom to do far more than most.

In our family, we’ve altered the phrase slightly  (and I’m certain Dave would be supportive).

We will live like no one else, so we can give like no one else.

As God blesses us with more, instead of drastically increasing our standard of living, we’ve decided to drastically increase our standard of giving.

Why stop at giving 10%, 12%, 30% or 50%? Because God has given us more, we believe we’re called to give more.

And as we as leaders give more, our churches will reflect God’s heart of generosity.”

(http://swerve.lifechurch.tv/2010/01/14/personal-generosity/)